[that's exactly what they should do. not to overstep, but to keep going. Cater nods, pushing his brain to keep moving, to not get stuck on the sight of Riddle beneath him.]
Right. Yeah. Sorry.
[he rolls back onto his side, to Riddle's side, and breathes in, out— jeez. What was he thinking, letting it carry on like that? would Riddle have stopped him if...]
[ There's a sense of mutual understanding, isn't there? That they need, desperately, to stop. If they push it any further, there won't be any coming back. Riddle's not even sure he would've had the self control to stop Cater. Not out of inability, but due to how good it felt. To have those hands on him, their lips pressed together just right, bodies flush and--
Riddle already misses the feeling. ]
It's-- It's alright. So did I.
[ So much for not thinking 'scandalous' things. How far would they have gone, had Cater not stopped them?
This was embarrassing, just how easily he'd gotten worked up, gotten to the point of damn near making a fool of himself, becoming an utter mess under Cater and almost thinking to ask him to keep going when he'd begun to pull back.
He's supposed to be collected, responsible, careful.
Turning back onto his side, he finds he can't exactly meet Cater's eyes, playing with the sleeves of his sweater.
The sudden lack of contact ached, but he needs to be careful. Keep himself from making any moves that might be against their better judgement. He decides it's... probably fine to take one of Cater's hands. Or, try to. He shuffles slightly closer, his hand inching close to Cater's, his pinky and ring finger resting carefully against Cater's, trying to hint at it, to ask for that bit of contact.
All while he moves to bury his face against Cater's chest, still trying to catch his breath, to focus on anything but all that. ]
[Right... right. They're both on the same page, clearly. The same page of cooling down, of not jumping down into rabbit holes they can't climb out of.
But it's different now, isn't it? Something has changed. The way Riddle looks in the dim of windowlight has changed. What was just a lovely sight to see before has become something dangerously desirable.
What's undesirable is the idea of Riddle's disappointment— something much stronger than the fatigued mortification of his own lack of control that's drumming through his head. Maybe Cater would like to go find a closet alone somewhere to scream about this, but not right now.
it's still a secret after all. it's safe.
Cater wiggles his hand, turning his palm up under Riddle's hand until he can grasp those last two fingers of his.]
...good night, Housewarden.
[carefully chosen words and soft, green eyes. that's all Cater can be right now. he can overthink later.]
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Date: 2025-05-30 09:03 am (UTC)[that's exactly what they should do. not to overstep, but to keep going. Cater nods, pushing his brain to keep moving, to not get stuck on the sight of Riddle beneath him.]
Right. Yeah. Sorry.
[he rolls back onto his side, to Riddle's side, and breathes in, out— jeez. What was he thinking, letting it carry on like that? would Riddle have stopped him if...]
Just— got a little carried away there.
[ya think, genius??]
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Date: 2025-05-30 02:13 pm (UTC)Riddle already misses the feeling. ]
It's-- It's alright. So did I.
[ So much for not thinking 'scandalous' things. How far would they have gone, had Cater not stopped them?
This was embarrassing, just how easily he'd gotten worked up, gotten to the point of damn near making a fool of himself, becoming an utter mess under Cater and almost thinking to ask him to keep going when he'd begun to pull back.
He's supposed to be collected, responsible, careful.
Turning back onto his side, he finds he can't exactly meet Cater's eyes, playing with the sleeves of his sweater.
The sudden lack of contact ached, but he needs to be careful. Keep himself from making any moves that might be against their better judgement. He decides it's... probably fine to take one of Cater's hands. Or, try to. He shuffles slightly closer, his hand inching close to Cater's, his pinky and ring finger resting carefully against Cater's, trying to hint at it, to ask for that bit of contact.
All while he moves to bury his face against Cater's chest, still trying to catch his breath, to focus on anything but all that. ]
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Date: 2025-05-30 05:42 pm (UTC)But it's different now, isn't it? Something has changed. The way Riddle looks in the dim of windowlight has changed. What was just a lovely sight to see before has become something dangerously desirable.
What's undesirable is the idea of Riddle's disappointment— something much stronger than the fatigued mortification of his own lack of control that's drumming through his head. Maybe Cater would like to go find a closet alone somewhere to scream about this, but not right now.
it's still a secret after all. it's safe.
Cater wiggles his hand, turning his palm up under Riddle's hand until he can grasp those last two fingers of his.]
...good night, Housewarden.
[carefully chosen words and soft, green eyes. that's all Cater can be right now. he can overthink later.]